God's Reckless Love: Find Peace & Freedom in His Grace

There’s a love that doesn’t make sense by the world’s standards. A love that leaves the ninety-nine to chase after the one. A love that lights up shadows, tears down lies, and pursues us in the middle of our mess. That’s the reckless love of God.

In this post, I share my personal testimony — a journey through pain, disappointment, infertility, shame, and ultimately, the radical love of Jesus that changed everything.

From Knowing About God to Truly Knowing Him

I grew up in the church. I knew the Bible stories, the right words to say, the motions of faith. But deep down, I didn’t know God’s heart.

Over time, I drifted into a spiritual desert. I felt disconnected, weighed down by shame, and believing lies like “I’ll never be good enough” or “I’ll always carry regret.”

But that wasn’t the end of my story.

When Motherhood Became an Idol

In the midst of a decade-long health battle and infertility journey, I tried everything. I made diet changes, followed fertility protocols, overhauled my lifestyle, prayed relentlessly, spoke Scripture declarations, and even considered medical procedures. I begged God for a baby.

But looking back, I see how I had made motherhood an idol. I was chasing outcomes instead of surrendering to the One who holds all outcomes. My identity became wrapped up in whether I could conceive, and I believed that pregnancy was the missing piece to my wholeness.

The truth? God didn’t want my striving. He wanted my heart.

God’s Kindness in the Desert

In my desert season, God revealed Himself as kind, good, and faithful, even when His answers to prayer did not look like what I hoped for.

My hope had been placed in outcomes, but God gently shifted my hope back to Him. He replaced lies with truth. He reminded me that I am His daughter, that He delights in me, and that nothing can separate me from His love. He lifted the crushing weight of shame I had carried for years.

Like the shepherd in Luke 15, He left the ninety-nine to find me, picked me up, and carried me home.

Luke 15:3-7 (NIV) “Then Jesus told them this parable: “Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Doesn’t he leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders and goes home. Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, ‘Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.’ I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent.”

The Freedom of Reckless Love

The worship song Reckless Love by Cory Asbury captures what God did in my heart:

“When I was Your foe, still Your love fought for me.
You have been so, so good to me.
I couldn’t earn it, I don’t deserve it,
Still, You give Yourself away…”

That’s the love that healed me. The love that reparented me, not with shame or fear, but with patience, gentleness, and truth.

I stopped striving. I stopped hiding. I stopped carrying outcomes. I simply began to live as His daughter. And friend, that is freedom.

Hope for the Weary Heart

If you feel far from God, burdened by shame, or weary from unanswered prayers, hear this: God is still pursuing you. There is no sin too great, no past too broken, no desert too dry. His love will chase you down, carry you home, and set you free.

Reflection Questions

1. What 'outcomes' might you be striving for instead of surrendering to God's will?
2. What lies about yourself or God's character might you be believing?
3. How can you invite God's "reckless love" to heal a specific area of your past or present struggle?